Saturday, September 24, 2011

Hyderabad, Here I come..

FINALLY, yes finally, my joining letter arrived in my inbox a few days back putting an end to the seemingly endless wait. TCS, my 1st employer, had finally remembered that it recruited us and mailed our joining letters which now seems to be my key to enter into the so called IT world, officially.
But wait, wait, hold on your creative and fast mind which is making the scenes of my happy mood, my 1st cloud-nine reaction in your head after reading the introduction paragraph. Because, the real picture was different, my response didn't match the occasion. For, my 1st reaction was not the happy one. It lacked excitement, joy, sparkle in my eyes which anyone of my friends, who know the pain of sitting jobless even when you are employed, would have shown. They would have immediately put the status on Facebook- " On cloud nine, finally got my jl ( joining letter) :) :) "
But my situation was different. My heart sank down. Annoyance and worry stole my first few moments of expression and disappointment was clearly visible on my face. I went downstairs to inform my grand mother about the joining. And like anybody, she was elated. After hugging me, she asked me the question, one big question- "When and where you have to join?" Answering "when" was not a big deal but "where"... the answer seemed to have stuck and I was finding it hard to say it. I couldn't say it. I was still in shock. And finally in low voice I said- "17th October, HYDERABAD" . Yes, Hyderabad.

Hyderabad, The City Of NAWABS. I don't have a personal dislike for the city as I have never been there. But my initial reaction do suggest that I never expected to have my ILP at Hyderabad. I always thought, it would be Ahmedabad ( after half of my batch mates got their joining there) or Trivendarum (The best ILP centre) but never Hyderabad. And so, here again, life surprised me with twist in tale, like it has always. And once again, it taught me a lesson- never expect things. Expectations kill the joy and excitement of the unknown that nature/life reveals. And moreover, when something doesn't happen as you expect it to happen, you are the only one who gets hurt.

So , I decided, when I leave for Hyderabad, I will not bear any pre-conceived notion about the city and its people in my mind ( for a free-flow of information have started to come in from my relatives lately) but explore myself. Every city is beautiful and so is Hyderabad. And after all, it's going to be the city from where I start my journey to a new destination, a city that will witness the beginning of a new chapter of my life, bringing me a step closer to my dreams, and my first chance to live on my own paving way to the freedom, and finally my Individuality and Identity !!!!! ( No expectations, just being positive, there's a difference between the two, isn't it? )

హియర్ ఐ కం , హైదరాబాద్ !!! (Here I come, HYDERABAD !!! )

Hello Again !!

And so I again make my seasonal entry in the blog world.I have remarkably been consistent in being inconsistent on this front, which has now gradually become my trait. I do miss blogging but that doesn’t imply I miss writing too. For, I have been scribbling a lot of my vague,incoherent and incomprehensible thoughts which unfailingly keeps my mind occupied. Noting down these thoughts in my diary really helps me to keep myself sane in this insanely world around me.
Putting down my uncompiled thoughts, feelings, unfulfilled dreams and my new aspirations and desires..You don’t need to be a writer to pen down your real and honest writings. All you need is a pen and paper and once you start, you’ll know what to write, the words will flow and the ink will form pattern only to be interrupted with the questions and confusions of your mind. Yes, this happens, at least with me, when I make a diary entry that ends having quite a few half written sentences, an entry sans conclusion and title and just a few dots and blanks for the inexplicable feelings, half-baked,uncrystallized views and opinions. And though, it may look incomplete but it holds a different charm and a different meaning and make me realize that there’s still lot to explore and discover to find answers, a deeper dig required to come face to face with my self and keeps alive my quest for knowledge and learning.

And to end up, I don’t know why I am writing this, may be just a guilt for being absent on my blog, failing to keep posting here.So just an entry to say hello to blogosphere !!!